Lost in a daydream.

Hello there,

Exams are finally over & that concluded year 1.

It's 3am now. I don't need to study. I am tired. But I can't sleep.

For some reason, I keep having this thought that my end is near. I feel like my body is immensely screwed up from all the fast food I've been eating over the exam period. It's a form of relief and de-stress for me. But now that exams are over, I feel like I should do something for myself. I want to improve my health, my lifestyle, my mindset.

Here's the eating plan:
1. No fast food
2. Cook my own meals
3. Consume less meats/fatty food/sugars
4. Drink up
5. Stop over eating/reduce my appetite

I believe that we are really what we eat. I have seen all the manifestations of unhealthy diet on myself. My skin, my poor blood circulation (& the regular numbness that it accompanies), hair fall, & sometimes even heart aches. I've always been aware of how my choices are so super unhealthy, but I couldn't give a hoot because I think that I'm young, I'm robust. Now I find that it's totally not the case. It all accumulates & show up as you age.

I am super guilty of over eating. I usually have few meals. But whenever I eat, the amount can probably last me for 2 days. I have this urge of consuming whatever that's presented on my plate. I am full, but I want more, I want all of it. This greediness is scary. & I am going to change it.

Other plans include getting fit! I'm hoping that these plans that I'm putting in place can help to salvage the harm I've done to my body.

Exercise plan:
1. Cardio
2. Cores (to improve posture)
3. Arse (hahaha I need some ass)

Lifestyle changes:
1. Have 7-9 hours of sleep everyday
2. Stop this nocturnal thing that's escalating to being a "morning" person
3. Stop touching my face for godknowswhatreason
4. Stop slouching
5. Walk slower (this is probably the hardest)

Other than these I want to do many many things too!

Like:
1. Improving my culinary/baking skills
2. Improving my spoken/written language
3. Learn how to carry myself as a mature young lady (when the situation calls for it)
4. Find a job, a fun one
5. Traveling!
6. Improve my make up skills
7. Be a better friend/daughter/sister/human

This 3 months I'll be improving myself. I do not like how I am behaving now.